Saturday, March 30, 2013

Happy Birthday, My Sweet Girl


My sweet girl. You have waited for 5 years for a mommy and daddy. When we committed to be your family last May, I never dreamed that we wouldn't spend your birthday loving on you. I thought for sure that you would be home and we would have a grand celebration, in your honor.

I never imagined that we wouldn't yet even be approved and have our referral. I cannot believe it.

I am so sorry.

I wish I could have completed paperwork faster. I wish that our dossier would have been completely perfect, so that we would not have needed an addendum.

I do know though, that God has PERFECT timing. It's not my pretty picture that I have in my mind, but a much more beautiful plan.

Today I will think of you often, sweet Rose. Mommy loves you and I cannot wait to see you.

Friday, March 15, 2013


Not sure what's going on with me. I can't stop cleaning. I finally (after months) feel GOOD and today it showed! I vacuumed in places that haven't seen sunlight in years. Ha! Dusting. Organizing. Cleaning out. To make me feel even better, the glorious SUN was out and it went way into the 70s! Happy me! After spring break, I plan on getting to that garden! Guess I need a plan. Keeping myself busy as possible. You'd never imagine how many times I check my email per day! Still no news.

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Dear God,


Today I reflect on thirty-five years of blessings.

It's quite incredible all of the gifts that I have been given. I have a phenomenal family. My mother and father are the greatest parents I could ask for. They taught me how to work hard and stay strong - even in the darkest valley. My brother and I have taken these lessons and applied them to our lives and our children's lives. I have the gift of a very strong spiritual leader - my husband. He's an excellent roll model for me and our boys. He spends a lot of his time in prayer and meditation. I couldn't ask for a stronger man of faith. He's also a perfect daddy for our children. It's funny how - when I was just 16 years old - God whispered in my heart that he was special. God prepared me for our future by showing me that nothing worth fighting for comes easy. And this leads me to our precious, miracle boys. Like a light in the darkness they came (when we were ready to give up hope) and they have blessed us like nothing else could. And then another valley... The loss of our 'Natalia'. But God, as He always does, had a plan for me. Then Rose was revealed to my heart and to Paul's. As we wait, I reflect on God's gift and goodness. I am secure with Him.

I will celebrate my 35 years. I will keep calm, knowing that God knows my heart and what plan He has for me.

Thank you God! Lead me in your ways, always.

I love you all! I love you, Rose!


Friday, March 1, 2013

Virtual Birthday Party

Our little girl turns five this month. In honor of her 5th birthday I would love to throw her a virtual birthday party. Although, this party will be a little different. Instead of purchasing a gift for our beautiful girl, please feel free to go to Amazon and find something you would love to buy her and DONATE the price of the item to her FSP. The link is on the right side of this page. By donating, you are helping fund our travel and in-country fees.

We are sad that we cannot spend her birthday with her, but we are thrilled at the thought that it could be any day when we receive our official approval! Please keep all involved in this process in your prayers - our agency, her social worker, the ICBF officials and especially our sweet one!

Please feel free to comment below, letting us know what gift you "purchased" for Rose. We appreciate all you have done, and continue to do, to make this dream a reality!